Something special about women

Why do women think with their hearts? kenapa perempuan lebih sensitif? why, why and why??? Well, to me I believe that this is what makes women special. They think with their hearts, because not all things in the world can be easily explained by the minds. Sometimes, you just have to use the heart to make the decision that feels just right.

Women are more sensitif, lebih polite, and senang terasa hati.. All of these ciri2 are actually best to raise children, ataupun lebih dikenali dengan ciri2 keibuan.. I do feel that sometimes I'm too emotional, and slightly more sensitive that usual. Nak buat cam mane, our hormones sometimes a bit hay wire.. hahaha.. But, to be honest, please do treat us with care, as our hearts are too delicate, and needs good care by the person call husbands, or men in general. Even though we (women) can actually gegarkan dunia, we do still need our men to be by our side, and to take care of us. We are sooooooo delicate, and sensitive that only good men out there do deserve our love..

Why are we so special?? despite all the tough things that happen out there, we are actually survivors.. We are the superwomen, supermom, supergirl.. If only all women out there has a tilte super, that would be superb!..Mothers has the ability to withstand whatever hurdle that you can imagine, especially if it involves their children.. Waking up 3-4 times at night.. sometimes up to 10 times kalo anak demam.. every day until anak2 about 6 months, some even up to a year... pagi2 pergi kerja lg.. tu belum kire yg breastfeed.. campur kemas rumah, masak, jaga anak, lipat baju, gosok baju, vacuum, bla bla bla..... and yet we do all this just purely because of LOVE.. love our husbands, love our family, love the children.. Kalo dpt husbands yg tolong sama2 jgk tu, Alhamdulillah.. If not, we still do them cause we love our family right? But then, dont we also deserve to be treated nicely? once in a while dapat shopping, or even treat to a nice dinner, nice conversation.. or treat as though we are worth it.. that would be nice.. I love being a women, cause I'm special, with a special heart that has all the love to give..Treat me with kindness please..

Life's like that..

Had to take a cab home yesterday.. and it was indeed a meaningful conversation I had with the pakcik taxi.. 

Me: hmmm, ramai kan org balik dari komuter ni.. slalu jam macam ni ke, time-time balik kerja ni?

Pakcik: haah, biasa la tu.. sume org keluar cari rezeki.. Cik nak gi mana ni?

Me: hmm, pakcik singgah amik anak2 saya dulu bleh x? nanti lambat, kesian plak kat diorg.. Hish! husband saya ni, time-time ni la nak meeting sampai mlm.. ntah ape2 la die ni..

Pakcik: Ish, jangan complain Puan. Biasa la tu, sume orang ada kerja masing2. Sume orang kene mula dengan susah dulu.. Nanti kemudian baru senang. 

Me: Memang la, tapi susah jugak la pakcik, kalo duduk jauh dari tempat kerja.. lambat amik anak2 kat nursery..Lepas tu, masa pun abes banyak atas jalan je. jam x abes2 kalo kat KL tu.. Ni blom anak ramai lagi. baru 2 orang..

Pakcik: Kan pakcik dah kata, semua orang akan susah2 dulu.. Anak2 akan faham kalo mak bapak amik lambat sebab kerja. Bukannya diorg x paham.. Pakcik ni lagi la, anak ade 7 orang..Riuh rendah rumah tu. Tp xpe, pakcik percaya setiap anak tu ada rezeki masing2. Pakcik ni bawak teksi je, balik umah lewat malam jugak, keluar umah pun 6.30 pg.. Makcik sorg2 je kt umah jaga 7 org anak tu..Pakcik balik umah, penat cmner pun, umah riuh rendah cmner pun, pakcik diam je.. tenangkan diri, xpayah stress2.. hehehe

Take home message: Life's like that. Sume orang susah2 dahulu. If you are being stress about it, worries about life constantly, what do you get anyway?? heart disease, and high blood pressure.. :D

Change the way you see things..

I never really plan how I lead my life... Usually things fall according to what I believe is the best for me.. I fall in love with my hubby, agak awal la jugak.. didnt really plan for it to happen.. it just did.. It was my first love, and we got married quite young as well.. at the age of 21.. Then, I was pregnant with my first son, during my final year of study.. That was an unplanned joy as well.. hehe.. And after that another one came, after my son was only 1 year and 4 months old.. Pun unplanned joy...hmm, these are the doors that I opened with an open arms.. I accept it with joy and happiness.. And I realised that I am happy.. Thank you Allah.. And now, I do want to decide the doors that I open and close, to make me and my family lead a happy life.

Since I have kids of my own, I do see things in a different light.. I value some things more than before.. I interpret things differently as well.. For example, its our fun thing in the car if I can get my son to sing "the wheels on the bus" with me.. I love kissing him while he is sleeping soundly.. I love the smell of Dahlia when she wakes up in the morning (the smell of baby.. mmmmm).. not really the smell of Adam anyway, coz he'll smell very hancing due to the wet diapers.. :D I love seeing Adam all excited over a small thing, such as chocolate, seeing the birds close up, trying to touch the cat.. And I wonder.. Why did I not get this excited, happy feelings before.. Why did I not open to doors that will make me see life differently before..

Yesterday, there was this near accident happen at home.. Adam wanted to panjat his sister's rocking chair.. And then nak cube turun sendiri.. I was there, quite close to him.. I saw how he looks at what he's trying to do, as something huge.. He got all excited nak try to jump down, nampak like he's trying to impress me at the same time.. If only he could talk, I bet he'll say "Look mama!! I'm going to jump!!, I'm going to do this myself!".. But as a mum, I knew and I can sense that somehow, he's going to fall.. the rocking chair is not that stable, plus he's quite heavy and tembam ok.. However, I cant stop him from trying something new.. plus he has this excited-ness in his eyes..  In the end, I decided to let him jump, but I waited really close by to catch him if he falls.. That's what I did..

And of course, memang die jatuh pun.. Nearly fall flat on his face, but I sempat catch him 5 cm, before his nose touches the floor.. pheewwwww.... he felt surprised.. didnt cry, but has that satisfaction look in his eyes.. He said he wont do it again though..  From that incident, I learnt that, being a mother is tough.. You want to prevent bad things from happening, but at the same time you want to be the cool mum, you want only good things to happen.. you want to prevent accidents.. Hey, we are only mothers.. we are not angels!! not even a magician.. (I do wish I have magic powers sometimes though..) So, I learnt also that, I dont want to be a rigid mum.. I want my son to experience life.. if he falls, then I will be the one to tell him to get up and keep running.. If he wants to jump, I want to be the one telling him to aim high.. If he wants to sing, I want to tell him to sing his heart out.. But I also want to be the person who he comes to, when he need someone to listen to his complaints, when he needs someone to give advice and guidance.. and definitely if he needs me to rescue him.. Only if he needs me too..

I choose to be happy, and if this is the way to it, let it be.. Its hard to make everyone sees how you see things, but as long as you make yourself happy, then be it..

Mum, I want to make mistakes of my own..

Mothers always want the best for their children. No doubt about that, coz I'm a mother too..They will try all their best to see their children lead a happy life according to what they have set the picture in their mind. Mothers will not let their children make mistakes, watch them get hurt, or even fail in their life.. However, do we mothers ever wonder that:

1) The mistakes that our children make, will make them wiser, help them grow up, become more mature, and more responsible? this is what each and every person have to go through in life.. Make mistakes, and learn from it.. That's the learning curve..

2) Get hurt, physically or emotionally.. that's just what life is about.. "jangan lompat, nanti jatuh!!", "jangan bercinta masa belajar, nanti you'll get hurt if he dumps you!!", jangan lari, nanti jatuh, luke, sakit!!".. These are all that mothers worry about.. Kalo camtu, xkan anak2 tak belajar nak lompat? nak lari? nak bercinta? Xdapat la anak2 nak jadi pelari pecut, kalo takut jatuh.. Terpaksa la anak kita jadi andartu, atau bujang sampai mati kalo takut nak bercinta..

3) You will never fail in life, if whenever you fall down, you get up again, and learn something from it.. There's no such thing as a failure, if what you learn from it, makes you a better person in the future.. And the most important thing is, how do you define if someone is a failure or not? from whose perspective? dari mata siapa?

I know that mothers always wants the best for their children, but sometimes you just need to get loose, be more understanding, and just stay back and watch.. Let your children make mistakes once in a while, and be the person who they will come to, to ask for advice and guidance.. Dont be the one who they will run away from, and hide stuff from, just because they want to learn about life.. Happy Mother's Day to my mum.. Please mum, I want to make my own mistakes and learn from them too, so that I can grow up to be a better and wiser person.. :D

MEN... memang blur, or saje buat2 blur??

I hate it when I feel angry, or kecik hati, or merajuk, and then that specific person didnt even notice, or buat2 x tau.. or just ignore the fact that I'm merajuk.. Yup!! that's what they call a MAN.. or specifically, my hubby..  huhu.. dulu time before kawin, merajuk sket je, terus pujuk.. kadang siap dgn present2 lg.. skarang, time anak dah dua.. kita merajuk pun die x sedar.. or saja buat x nak sedar..blur btol laaa... huhuhuhu....

Anyway, I realised that when I'm angry, or kecik ati with hubby, I have this extra energy that I dont know where to channel it? I dont usually lepaskan marah outloud.. I'm more of simpan dalam kinda person.. if its really bad, then I'll cry by myself.. So, when I have this extra energy inside, it usually stops me from sleeping.. susah nk tido.. terkebil2 mata time malam.. hmmm, actually I could have use this time to do something more beneficial kan? but because its late at night, plus my mind jadi x tenang sbb hati marah, so end up not doing anything, just pandang siling je la.. huhu

Conclusion from this is: 

1) Kalo rasa nk merajuk, kene bg tau.. "B! I merajuk ni!! you tau tak??" hehehe.. kalo x, buat rugi je berhari2 pendam perasaan..

2) try and get it solved as quickly as possible.. Penat je rasa marah ni.. It consumes a lot of your energy and space in your head.. nak pikir benda lain susah.. 

3) Hmm.. buang  masa je sebenarnya merajuk ngan hubby ni... bukannya we can change anything pun..

So, the main point that I'm trying to say is, get straight to the point.. Good communication is essential in keeping the relationship going... Tu la, apa yg I dpt from merajuk ni pun, I'm not sure.. just that sometimes ada ego sket, xnak ckp sorry dulu... worth it ke??